Since the accident my social life and outlook has changed a lot. It is said that people live in one of two realms—anticipation or reflection. Before the fall I used to default to anticipation. Reflection was usually a let down for me (that may have to due with high expectations). After 60+ really solid sessions with my counselor, she said, “You’re in a fun dessert.” Huh? She said, “I think you have Anhedonia.” What the heck is that?

Some earlier definitions of anhedonia emphasized the inability to experience pleasure. Anhedonia is used by researchers now to refer to reduced motivation, reduced anticipatory pleasure (wanting), reduced consummatory pleasure (liking), and deficits in reinforcement learning. Common causes include: overwork, recent tragedy, financial problems, bad weather, and boring activities. I checked three of the five options. This might be an overstatement, but along with my support team (wife, family, counselor, doctors, pastor, and friends), I think I am s-l-o-w-l-y improving.